January 26, 2005
Examphobia?
I had this really weird dream last night...kind of like a nightmare to me. The dream goes like this...
I'm walking in a hallway of a school, going to my assigned exam room to take my cscc85 exam. It is a huge room, full of students sitting in their individual desks getting ready to write the exam. I started to get a little nervous, then I'm kind of relieved seeing my Prof of that course standing in the middle of the room ready to distribute the papers. I walk into the room, seems like all the seats are occupied. So I walk pass all these students and to the back of the room to find one seat left in the entire room. My Prof start saying "Okay cxx students can now start their exam...". My mind was blank for a split second. "Shit, I'm in the wrong examination room?!" I quickly walk to the Prof and ask him, "Isn't this the room for c85?". "No, this is for the cxx course." Prof replied. (thinking to myself)Fuk!. "Do you know where the c85 exam room is?" I asked. "Hum...I think its right at the corner of that hallway." Prof started to get annoyed. I said thx as I blasted out to find the c85 room. I keep walking and walking, passing one class room after another, c85 room is no where in sight. (thinking to myself) I remember checking the website for room # last night, and I was sure it says xxx(the room i was in before) wat the hell happened?! Finally, I see the sign for c85 when I reach the basement level of the school. Oddly enough, there is a guy standing in front of the door, but I could care less so I just walk straight towards the door and the guy sticks out his arm trying to stop me from going in. "You have to finish a task before you can get in." he said. (thinking to myself agian) WTF!! Is this some kind of a joke?! I'm already late for the exam I don't need anymore "obstacles"!...
Then I don't remember exactly how everything were, I just remember I had to do some ridiculous things and at the end I was able to get into that room after I wasted so much of my valuable time. And I start writing the test in my worst and most worried mood ever...The End
lol...I woke up in sweats after this dream!! scary stuff!
Author: elmolulu » Comments:
January 13, 2005
Feeling: lazy...don't want to study...just let me listen to hocc
Listening: Hocc's Glam
Doing: Reading Applied Arts magazine (new issue), chatting, ocassionally looking at the candle on my desk (I can stare at it for hours...its amazing that how beautiful a little fire could be)
I've been eating popcorn everyday lately, especially when I want anime...hum...maybe I should stop that before I get too fat...hohohoho
Author: elmolulu » Comments:
January 12, 2005
After reading a friend's entry abt competition, I wanted to say something. I used to be a very competitive person when I was in elementary(in academic wise...lol), but eversince I moved here all my "competitiveness" has somehow disappeared. Maybe that's becuz I always won't and can't do as good as somebody else so why bother competing? Besides, nowadays I don't like to have the "competitive tension" btw friends if you know wat i mean. Then you may ask wat abt other ppl? I don't really know what's the point of competing to someone else, just to feel good for a couple of seconds? or just to feel you are "above" the others? None of these suit my personality now. (used to, but not now) I just want to give the best I can and stop caring about wat others got for their works. I agree that competing against urself is the best way to improve yourself. At least that's what I think. Anyways...
I'm feeling lucky tonight, just checked my marks for the past term all 4 marks are out but still dont' know the class avg yet. Last term has the highest sessional gpa for my 2 and 1/2 yr in UTSC which makes me feel very happy...lol
Now I'm gonna cross my fingers and hope everything turn out right for this term also! :) Good luck to everyone who has a study term for this semester~
Author: elmolulu » Comments:
January 02, 2005
Where is my new comp?
Apparently most of the computer stores have nothing left in their stores after the christmas holiday. I guess I won't be able to build my new comp until they restock their supplies!!!!!!>_< sigh I got all excited for this tim!
Author: elmolulu » Comments:
January 01, 2005
New Year Resolutions?
At the beginning of every year, most people would think of some resolutions/goals which they want to pursue throughout the year. When someone asked me what was/were my goal(s) for last yr, I couldn't answer it. I started to realize all the empty promises I've had for myself. I didn't really have goals or I was not successful in acheiving them. The fact that I haven't accomplished anything meaningful in 2004 scares me. I always wanted to live a simple life, and not to worry about gaining or losing. If I don't set a goal for myself then I won't fail or I won't accomplish it. That way I might be happier cuz I have no worries in my life? But I don't think it can be carry out in today's society unless I'm very rich and don't have to worry about not having enough money to live on. I guess being simple can also be a goal? If so then my New Year resolutions would be trying my best to lead a simple life, to read more philosophical books to enhance my spiritual thinking abiliy and of course I have to do okay/good in my courses. That's it folks, wish you all a Happy and Memorable 2005!
Author: elmolulu » Comments:
